Hello

Just wanted to say hello to everyone. I am doing ok. Could be doing better. I am now starting to sell stuff on ebay and hope that gives me a bit more financial happiness so you should come visit me www.myworld.ebay.com/plussizemadam/ I am selling plus size clothing (in selected sizes at the moment) and also some random things too. Come visit me.

why

Why do we keep doing the bad habbits over and over when we know they are not good for us or rather why do we not do the good ones. i really need to exercise and i love to do it when i am doing it but i always find excuses for not doing it. I know deep down that if i were to exercise more than i do i would have no problem getting my weight off. i don't have a huge problem with food compared to some one my size actually compared to anyone. I just need to get off my ass and move more. i need to push past my issues and get on it. i need to lose this weight once and for all. no one else can but me ok now i am off to bed

Where do they go

I have met a lot of people along the way and it is strange to me how people just go in and out of your life. Some people stay for a very long time and some make a brief appearance then are gone like they never existed. the only way you know they came was by your memories. i have hundreds of memories of people that i wish i knew where they were. sometimes my heart cries because I wish I could have seen more of there journey or that they could have stuck around to see more of my journey.

Where I am at

I am almost 31 WOW. I have gone back to school to earn a BS in Psychology and am excited about that. Starting my third class and loving the school I go to. I have not written any poems or writings in awhile sadly. I wish I could find the motivation to do it. I have a book started but have not come even close to finishing it. I think it will be good once i finish it. I did have a book started before but it got lost in the computer somewhere LOL but I lost my inspiration for it when my friend left my work. I had quite a bit done with it too. Oh well. the book i have going now i don't need anyone to inspire me for it just myself. my life is going pretty good right now. i have 3 wonderful kids and a wonderful husband who treats me far better than i deserve to be treated some days. he puts up with a lot. I wish we had more money but I think that is the problem with most people these days, the reason why i am going back to school. Not to mention I have been at my job for over 12 years and i think it is time for me to move on to something that i enjoy more. this job has provided great stability for me especially when my personal life was unstable. but now my personal life is stable so i need to branch out and find my true passion. eyes are not my passion. plus i need a job with more pay and better benefits for my family. well i am done for now. i hope i am on here more than before but who knows :)

Losing weight

I wanted to share with people that I am losing weight. I have lost over 30lbs so far and am on my way to my goal of 175lbs. I think it is really time for me to get serious and do this. I have been overweight too long and there are so many things that I want to do but can't do to my weight. So I hope to post here and let you know my progress and what I am doing to lose weight. I did start weight watcher a few months ago but only went for a month due to financial issues. I do hope to got back. The best thing about weight watchers is that it holds you accountable. Yes you can lose weight on your own but i think knowing that you have to go in each week and get weighed and some else sees whether you are losing or not really makes you want to keep on track. Plus they give you really good advice and seeing and hearing about what works for other people is really helpful. So wish me luck.